Letter 16: Angel Numbers

To My Noah, 

Today, I want to talk about Angel Numbers. I already told you that I can communicate with all of the types of entities that I talked about: Earth bound spirits that died, hungry ghosts, demons, goblins, and Extraterrestrials (ETs). There are well documented ways to speak to the Divine too. 

We can communicate with the Divine through messages called Angel Numbers. These numbers are repeating numbers that have well known meaning. Just type in Angel Numbers and see what all comes up. The meanings vary between sites, but some are the same and very consistent through the interpretations. What matters is what you attribute to the meaning since this is your communication with the Divine.

Numerology is also connected. It is the study of numbers and their meanings and how they relate to a person's traits and life path. I got a really good free numerology reading based on my birth name and birth date that was really accurate about my life and me. Just type in free numerology reading and it comes up first on numerology.com. You will be surprised how accurate it is. 

Back to Angel numbers, I will tell you what my meanings are. This is from ten years of using them and many years of looking them up on multiple sites and trying to figure out what meaning applies to me at this time. That is another factor in giving meanings. It may mean something in one stage of life and something else in another. 

That is why it is best to look them up first to get familiar with the different meanings and then have your go to meanings for most of the time so you don't always have to look it up. I go with my go-tos unless it doesn't apply or I have something in particular that I am looking for guidance with. 

It's best to start with repeating numbers in 3s. For example, 111. My 111 go to is what you are thinking you are creating or what you are thinking about or doing you will get. If it's positive, great! If it's negative, it is a reminder to stop with that line of thinking or behavior because it's the wrong direction. You may know 11:11 on the clock to make a wish. That stems from Angel Number repeating 1s, what you are thinking, you are creating and with the power of 4 repeating numbers. 

My go to 222 has to do with coupling or relationships. They can be love relationships or other types. You would see this when you have a twin flame, soulmate, or karmic around or when you need to collaborate with someone. If I am working with someone and I see 111, I would question if I need to stop collaborating. In tarot, this would be The Lovers card in the positive or The Devil card in the negative. 

This is another definition of 111 (individuality), but I am using it to show you how meanings change based on what you are going through. If I saw 222 and then 111, it's definitely a sign to stop collaborating. However, if I saw it the other way around 111 then 222, that would be a sign that I am trying to do too much alone and I need help. I am purposefully not just giving you my definitions, but the process of figuring out meanings which most sites do not do.

For me, 333 means The Trinity or God/Jesus/Holy Spirit is with me. If I see 333 when going through something stressful, it's reassurance and comfort that God is with me. If I see it when I am contemplating something, I see it as encouragement that God is supporting it unless I get another sign that it's a warning from God. Threes also means a group of people. 3 is company and it signifies a group of people. In tarot, it is 3 of Cups that means groups and it has a positive connotation. 

The next one is 444, I see this as stability like the four legs of a chair or the Angels are with me. It's also a protection card that the Divine/Angels are protecting you. It's reassurance for me if I am going through something stressful. The Angels are with me, I am protected, and I will achieve stability again. It could also be a message to move forward with something you are contemplating because it is stable, protected, and the Angels are supporting it.

The Angel Number 555 means change is coming. This one is one of the most agreed upon in the Angel Number community. This could be a positive change or a negative change. The more times you see it and the more repeating 5s you see, the bigger the change. 

For example, 5555 means more change than just 555. If you see it and you are going through a struggle, this can mean it will get better or will get worse before it gets better. The tarot card that I relate 555 to is The Tower card. Good or bad, it's coming and will take an adjustment. That's how the tower card can be good in tarot even though it looks ominous. 

You can look at other numbers that come near 555 to see whether it's a positive or negative change. For example, 555 (change) with 333 (Trinity/group) or 444 (Angels/stable/protection) would be positive, but 555 with 222 (coupling) would mean it's coming for your partner and doesn't give an indication of positive or negative. You would have to get other signs for direction of positive or negative. 

The next one I will cover is 666. 666 in Angel Numbers can mean something ominous as the devil like The Devil card in tarot. For example, get away from a certain person or situation because they are bad. But in Angel Numbers, 666 is a family number. Your family is nearby, your family can help you in times of struggle, you have your family for support as a reminder, get support from your family if you need help, etc. 

The next one you will recognize from games. 777 represents luck and hard work paying off. In gambling, it means the jackpot. If you see 777, it is a positive message. If you are going through something good, it's a reminder and confirmation of your luck. If you are contemplating something, it is saying you have luck on your side. If you are going through something tough, it's a reminder that although it's bad, it will get better. This lines up with The Wheel of Fortune in tarot. The wheel is always moving. Good or bad never lasts.

The next one is one of my favorites. 888 means abundance is coming. This is an omen for an abundance of good coming in. The kids and I have a saying when we see this for, "Abundance baby!" If you are going through something tough, it means it's about to get better. If you are contemplating something, it's a sign to go forward with it because it will bring abundance. Like with 777 lucky, I don't have a negative for this one. Abundance in tarot can be shown by the 10 of Pentacles and The World cards. 

The next one 999 is another one that is really consistent in the community on its meaning of endings are coming. In the tarot cards, this would be The Death card that although can mean actual death, but means endings most of the time. These endings can be good or bad. It depends on what you are going through. 

If you are in a bad period, it means it will get better. This is back to The Wheel of Fortune card. If it's good, that's the end of it too. If you see it with 222, it could mean a relationship is ending. If you see it with 555, a big change is coming with this ending. 

Next we will cover consecutive numbers. If it's ascending (123, 234, 345, etc.), that means that you are going in the right direction. If it's descending (321, 432, 543, etc.), that means you need to rethink what you are doing or what you have going on. One I see on the clock a lot that really means you are going in the right direction is 12:34. 

1010 is a four digit that I have a go-to for. It means new beginnings. After the 999 ending, there are new beginnings and 10 is a beginning number of the two digit numbers.  I see this one as positive after what could be seen as a negative ending. It could be the start of a bad patch, but for me, this one is positive. 

Another four digit that I have a specific meaning different for is 3333, which means better than I can imagine. It goes with the trinity, but it's one that I saw years ago for 3333 that just stuck with me. Once you start studying Angel numbers, you will see what sticks with you in terms of meanings. 

What you won't see when studying Angel Numbers is that negative entities can also communicate in Angel numbers. They trick you into thinking they are from the Angels. Most of the spiritual community is love and light and everything good. What's dangerous about this is that when you open someone up to the positive, the negative comes with it without warning. 

Life isn't all love and light and neither is spirituality. It's not only a paranormal community issue, it's a spirituality community issue too. This was something that really hurt me personally. I had negative entities pretending to be positive light beings that used Angel numbers along with telepathy to communicate with me. 

If you don't know what telepathy is, it is communication with the mind that doesn't use the voice or verbal words. You hear it in your head. For me, telepathy is how entities communicate. I just didn't know that dark entities pretend to be light beings and do a very good job of pretending. 

I have been reading the new psychotherapists website while working on the blog. I am getting tired, so I am publishing and relaxing. I am feeling better about life and finding you at the right time. I will never settle. Good night my love! 💖

Love Always, 

Your Allie, Christa
tomynoahblog@gmail.com

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Letter 15: Empaths

To My Noah, 

Today, I want to talk about being an empath. What is an empath? It is someone who is highly sensitive that feels and absorbs the energy of others. Empath's don't have the natural barrier between them and others that most have. 

Since they sense the energy, they are better at reading energy too. Not having a barrier and absorbing the energy of others makes them vulnerable to negative energy. It can bring down your mood or make you sick. Conversely,  positive energy can uplift them. 

I love going to sporting events and concerts where everyone is happy. The energy of those places makes me super happy. It is not good on the losing side of things at the end though because you feel everyone's losing disappointment. It's time to get out if that happens. 

I found out that I am an empath in 2014 when I felt Trevor's energy so strong, but I didn't have a name for it until 2016. I realized what it was when I was working as a counselor with lots of people. That is not good for an empath because I was taking on their negative energy. It did help when I moved to happier places to work back in higher education. 

I have also felt the pain of others. I got Nana's headache when she had one and someone else's foot pain in the same location on my foot. Those are the only two occasions where I have actually felt pain of others. However, it is hard for me to watch injuries and emotional hurt of others on tv. 

I don't actually feel the physical pain from people on the tv, but it's still hard to look at. There is no way I could work in health care. And I do feel the emotional pain in the storyline despite knowing it's acting. Real life people going through real pain is worse than what I see on tv, but I still don't want to watch it on tv. The news is really bad because it's real people's pain and struggle vs. acting in fiction shows. 

The counselor that told me the kids were encountering spirits also counseled me on being an empath. He knew what that was and how to help me work with people as a counselor without taking so much on. I learned white light protection. In white light protection, you use your mind's eye to see a white light coming from the sky and surrounding you and also going inside you to protect you from other's energy. 

Empaths can use this bubble of light to act as their own barrier since they don't have a good barrier naturally. You can also use your mind's eye to see your aura to pull your aura in to protect it. You see it large and then pull it in tight to your body and then put a white light bubble around it. 

I also do regular grounding and energy clearing techniques. My favorite energy clearing is using my mind's eye to see the shower water as a waterfall cleansing me inside and out and seeing all of the negative energy going down the drain with the water. 

My favorite grounding technique is bare feet on the ground using the mind's eye to watch negativity going into the ground. If I am outside and it's sunny, I will use the sun in place of white light to cleanse and protect me. You don't have to imagine with your mind's eye for the ground, water, or the sun to do their jobs, but it helps clear energy that you can't see without your mind's eye. Nature is so healing and natural cleansing and protection.

At work, I also took breaks and hurried along really stressed out people when I felt them affecting me. Once I learned people, I was able to know and schedule accordingly people that would affect me negatively. I also kept water at my desk to drink to clear me between clients. I often took a walk during my lunch break to get outside in nature to clear my energy. 

I had to stop being friends with people addicted to drama. What does that look like? People addicted to drama cause it in their lives, but also help others with their drama. Although it's good to help others, it's not good when you are addicted to drama. They aren't helping for the right reason and most of the time don't realize that's why you are doing it. 

They just think you like to help people through their drama. There are a few people that I have had to limit or cut off because they are addicted to drama. They don't realize how negatively their drama association affects empaths. I didn't either before I learned that I am an empath and what it meant. 

I've told people that they are addicted to drama. They didn't recognize it until I told them, but they admitted that it was true when I brought it up. They are still at it, so the addiction is strong enough to continue when they are aware of it. I steer clear of those people. 

Another thing that empaths have to be mindful of is how much energy they are putting into things and people. What does that mean? Well, empaths feel for others, so we naturally put a lot of our energy into others, especially people we care about. What do I mean by putting energy into others? How much time and effort you give towards someone. 

I monitor how much effort, time, and energy I am giving to someone or a situation. If they aren't giving that back to me at the same rate, I pull back. If pulling back doesn't make it add up, I quit the person or situation completely unless it balances back out. For example, I will stop talking to them until they reach out first and then only respond at the rate they are communicating with me.  

I am a giver and give a lot, but I won't be taken advantage of by takers. Also, if I am interested, I am going to give a lot of attention to a person or thing, I give it my all. However, I notice if I am not getting that energy and attention in return. 

For example, I was dating a guy. When I realized that I was always the one initiating conversation, I pulled back. Then there was no conversation. That let me know that I was putting more energy into the situation, so I went back to just friends with them. 

I will not be in a situation where I am putting more into it no matter how much I like someone. My energy is too valuable. Also, we get attached to people we are regularly in contact with. I don't want to be attached to someone who is not giving what I am giving. 

I could tell that in the beginning they were giving as much energy to it as me. However, they pulled back, so I did too. It's not personal, it's energy transfer. And I am particular with my energy transfers. I had another person who I checked by not messaging them. They messaged me and balanced theirs back out, so I kept them. 

Taylor Swift got married and that is all I am seeing on social media. She went down the aisle to "Love Story," her song. I saw later that her husband went all out to get her attention to date him. She said she wasn't sure if he was crazy or not, but she realized that what he was doing was exactly what she had been singing about her guy doing since her teens, and he was doing it. 

He said he listened to her music and did what she wanted. It worked because he got her attention and turned out to be smart, not crazy. I expect something like Taylor Swift. Half-assed and mediocre isn't going to cut it. I want someone crazy about me and not afraid to show it. 

Drama in a positive way would be nice. I've had it before, but not in a positive way. Stripping screaming at my window or fighting the new guy is not the right kind of drama. Singing a song at my window would be though. Putting my name on the side of your car like Scott wanted to do that I hated is borderline now. It would depend on how it was done. A cute sticker on the back of the window of something romantic would be appropriate, but not huge down the side of the vehicle like he described. 

The quote I put on here about empaths is true. You can feel energy, but you also have to put in the effort to monitor the energy exchanges too. I commented on how good the energy was with this last one and then I dipped out when it wasn't that way anymore. And you have to be very careful with intimacy because that can connect you up to three weeks from what I read. No thanks for bad energy for that long. 

I did a questionnaire to see what type of partner was best for me. I got another empath or a rock. A rock is someone who is stable, grounded, and calm. Another empath will understand what it's like to be affected by another's energy. 

However, a rock can be a grounding force or secure anchor to prevent me as an empath from being overwhelmed by emotional overload. Either would work for me, but I think I prefer a rock. I like the idea of a rock protecting me. Another Leo the lion has also attracted me for that reason. 

I know that my expectations and needs are a lot. However, I have waited this long, earned a Ph.D in rejection, and I am willing to be alone until I get what I want. Well, I am going to relax and watch some HGTV, my favorite channel. I am working on myself and my life until we unite. Good night my love. 💗

Love Always, 

Your Allie, Christa
tomynoahblog@gmail.com

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Letter 14: Past Life Regression

To My Noah, 

I talked about Prom at 17 and my job at 18, but I didn't tell a story that I got. Pam told me about after graduation (17 still). Pam and I had the same car. It was a white Mitsubishi eclipse. Hers had a fin, but mine didn't. 

We were at her house. Her boyfriend at the time didn't want her going out, but we were determined. We backed my car in backwards and took her car to go out, so it looked like she was home when she wasn't. We went and did ecstasy for her first time with guys that already graduated from Lexington High School. 

Shawn and Nick were the names of two of the guys we hung out with. That's all I remember and got from Pam. We probably took multiple pills that they gave us. Sex was out of the question because I was in a no dating/sex phase at that time. I adamantly stuck to that. 

Nineteen with David was Florida trips and Cancun. He loved the beach and to travel as much as I did. He had his parent's timeshares to use and could afford it with his job. I loved the new lifestyle that was better than hanging out at Craig's house. Spoiled hit a new level.

I am going to tell you about my week long trip to Cancun. It was my first international flight and trip. My ears popped so bad when we were landing. It was so much pain that I didn't think I could stand it. I took a big shot of tequila as soon as we got to the resort, even before going to our resort room. My ears were still hurting by that point, but it wasn't bad anymore. 

I was so happy that the drinking age was 18, not 21. The tequila shot was so nasty because it was served hot, and I wasn't expecting it. I was used to and expecting a chilled tequila shot and it was quite the surprise. I didn't vomit, but it wasn't good. I ended up at bars that had pay one price and drink all night. I'd never experienced that before. 

At these pay one price bars, you payed an entry fee and then they came around with drinks all night on trays for you to get and drink. It was an amazing experience for a legal drinker now. David drank right along with me. He could hang. 

We found weed and smoked it there too. We asked at a t-shirt store where we could buy weed. We were told to go upstairs to buy our t-shirts and weed. We did and it was the best weed I ever had. It was an aphrodisiac, which was good on vacation with my lover. 

We went bungee jumping, and I didn't even remember it. Too much tequila. I walked by and they stopped us. They said that I was the lady from last night that taunted a guy afraid to jump. And told me that I went right up there with no fear and jumped. 

The going up there with no fear could've been me, but taunting someone because they were scared was the tequila and likely taken over me. If I blacked out, I know now to question if it was even me. I blacked out a lot with David because we drank a lot.

Twice I woke up to find that I had punched him in the face and gave him a black eye. Someone that took over my body when I was blacked out really didn't like David. I also kissed another guy in front of him that I would never do. That was a bad blackout period for me. I got off the ecstasy, but replaced it with blackout, takeover drunk that I didn't understand. 

I remember sitting in psychology class learning about blackouts from the educational perspective and thinking how much it happened to me. Imagine my shock when I learned many years later that it was spirits taking over my body and doing things in my name that I would never actually do. They had a fun time with my body during the David timeframe. 

Speaking of being taken over, I haven't involved the kids with this blog, but I recently told them about it. I asked if they wanted to be involved and maybe do another radio show, but they were not interested. They want to live a normal life without this in it, and I understand. We did a radio show with Jonathan and his daughter. It was about fighting spirits. It was on KCOR radio and lasted for two hours. We used our middle names as our names instead of our real first names. 

We talked about spirit attacks stemming from generational curses of spirits being attached to family lines. I am not surprised that my kids want the most normal life after all that they have been through. However, I have to tell our story without them unless they change their minds later in life. 

I don't know how you keep in a story like what we experienced. There has to be a reason for going through something like that. As kids, they want things as easy as possible. However, we will see what they decide as adults. 

I also got a tattoo during that Cancun trip. I remember picking out the tattoo and getting it. I had a few drinks, but not blacked out. I wanted something tribal for my Native American roots. I chose a tribal lizard. I decided to get it on my lower back where it looked like the lizard was going down my bathing suit bottom. I didn't expect it to be as big as it is. To my surprise, it didn't hurt. 

I will talk about past life regressions. You can look these up online if you have never heard of them. Basically what happens is you get hypnotized to tap into your subconscious mind. They use it in regression hypnosis therapy for traumas and other life events. You use the same method to tap into your past lives instead of this life. Just like regression hypnosis used by therapists, usually guided imagery is used to hypnotize you enough to access the subconscious mind. 

I got certified to be a past life regressionist. That means I am certified to do the guided imagery to access the subconscious mind and your past lives. One of the methods that I use is a staircase that you see in the picture. I didn't really think whether I believed in past lives until I kept getting one of mine in my dream journal. And then I wasn't interested in them very much until we had spirits attack Lexi from her past life family. 

If there are spirits attacking from a past life, they must exist. I can hypnotize myself to access my subconscious, but it is easier for me to use a guided meditation found free online through YouTube. Past life regressionists charge around $200-$300 for an hour session. I paid $200 for it once and then learned how to do it myself. 

If I suspect that someone is a soulmate, I do a regression on them. I have confirmed four this way so far. As I suspected, I had at least one life that I saw with them. You can even see similar dynamics to this life and better understand why certain things happen. For example, you can see why you feel afraid to lose someone for no reason in this life if you have lost them in a past life. I go into the hypnosis with the question or issue that I want clarification on. 

You can also see opposite patterns. For example, I lost Craig this time, However, in our past life, he lost me and had to raise our children by himself. With Jeremy, he died on me in the lifetime I got. And this time, no one died, but he was afraid of not being good enough and disappointing me the way he disappointed me by dying before. You can better understand patterns with soulmates when you tap into past lives.

Trevor has been my son in a past life for sure. When I met him, I recognized him a lot. I could feel his energy so strongly. I can't be in a room with him without feeling his energy. One time I hugged him at a funeral and it felt electric. He is the one that I learned about feeling energy and being an empath.

Trevor is eight years younger than me and not knowing me thought that is why he felt like my son. I felt weird about dating him, even though I was very interested in dating him. When I learned that he was a son in a past life, I really understood how dynamics from past lives filter into this current life. 

He felt like my son this life because he was my son in a past life. So much so, that I couldn't date him  despite how fascinated I was with him and how close I felt to him. Later, I will admit that I changed my mind and was willing to overlook the past life dynamic because he is so exceptional, but he was married and it was too late to change my mind over learning the truth about what was going on. 

Some are karmics. They are also called karmic soulmates, but I do not like to give them the positive title of soulmate. Karmics are people that travel through lives with you to cause you problems. I have found those too. I had another psychic tell me that Jonathan was a rival in a past life, and that wasn't a surprise based on what happened between us in this life. 

Have you ever met someone and just didn't like them and you don't know why? Or have you had repeated problems with someone this lifetime (especially in romantic relationships) that keeps hurting you over and over again? They are likely a karmic and you should run because nothing good will come from this relationship. 

You can also tap into your subconscious mind to get answers from yourself that your conscious mind doesn't have. The subconscious mind is so powerful, and you can use meditation and hypnosis to tap into it. I do self-hypnosis during meditation using free videos from YouTube. I can do it on my own by walking myself through it, but videos from others takes the work out of it and lets me tap into it stronger. 

You can get and even see answers through guided meditation and hypnosis. A big yes or no or the actual answer to your question will just pop up. It's really cool to experience, especially if you aren't someone who regularly gets visions. 

Your relationship with soulmates and karmics from this lifetime matters too. I feel closer to one soulmate over another to spite conflicting information from a past life vs this life's occurrences. I was closer and spent more time with one in the past life than I did in this lifetime. It shows vs. the other that I lost early in the past life and had a lot of time within this lifetime. I still feel closer to the one I had this lifetime to spite more time in the past life. 

It also matters when the life was. If it was further in the past, the connection isn't as strong. The one with Trevor had to be more recent based on how strongly I recognized him and felt about him. Even though my regression with him was far in the past, I know that there is one more recent one where he was my son because of how strong it is.

Do you have someone that you keep coming in contact with throughout your life? Do you have someone that you automatically feel connected to for no reason? Did you meet the right person and spend your life with them? Do you have someone who you keep being with over and over again, but it doesn't work out over and over again? These are signs of soulmates in the positive and karmics in the negative.

Well, I wrote enough for today. I am going to relax and see what happens. I enjoy the fact that I have more knowledge to navigate relationships and life than most.  My research and practice has really paid off. 

I am going to practice meditation journaling again to see what I get. I have been out of practice with a lot. I am going to dream journal again too. I will likely write about my experiences soon. I will have to explain what they are when I do. Good night my love. 💑

Love Always, 

Your Allie, Christa
tomynoahblog@gmail.com

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Letter 13: Queen of the Friend Zone

To My Noah, 

It's been a few days since I wrote because I have been busy. Today was busy too, but I decided to write because I am missing you. I spent the day with Tara and her kids. Ricky came to the park after we had lunch. They are such a great couple and partnership together. It makes me wish I had that. They started dating in high school and have been together ever since. 

Ricky reminds me of my Uncle Shawn. Uncle Shawn is the standard that I use for men. No one has met it long-term yet. The kids got along so great. You cannot tell that it has been almost five years since they saw each other. They picked up like they were besties. The kids are so good. I am so lucky to have them. I know that parenting matters, but so does the nature of the kids.

I posted for stories, but I didn't get a lot even though 81 people have been reading the blog. I was reminded that I got my first car at 15. I worked at Papa Johns and bought it myself. I got a black Hyundai Elantra, but something was wrong with it. Even though you were supposed to buy it as is, they let me return it for a red Ford Probe. 

I also went to two at proms at 15. Jessica and I both went to prom with a guy from Papa Johns who didn't have a date at Lexington High School. He was a shy guy that had two beautiful women on his arms at prom. We made him feel good and he deserved it. Then, I went with Jessica's brother, Chris, at AHS because he lost his date last minute. Fifteen was an eventful year. We also flipped a truck with Michael after prom. We wrecked with Michael twice. 

The Ford Probe got keyed by a girl named Ashley over Wayne. She wrote, "whore" on the side of my car. Yes, another Wayne problem. It was fixed by the auto body class at Airport High School (AHS). Jeremy was probably the one working on it as usual. Throughout life he has had to fix my vehicles all the way up until the last one in the last minute I was in town. 

I had the Ford Probe until 16 when I totaled it. I pulled out on East Steele Road and got hit by a man in a truck with a load on his ladder rack. I do not remember it because I had a concussion and was out for a while. I was sick for days after. I don't think I had a boyfriend at that time. 

I got a new car in a crazy way. I was carless and sad. I looked outside and saw that this nice car was keyed all over. It was my neighbor's car. He was supposedly a drug dealer and a lady got mad at him and keyed his car. I asked if he would sell the car to me. I was able to get it cheap and then have AHS autobody fix the paint for me. I got a good deal on that car and it had really good rims. 

The only AHS guy that I dated at 16 was David. We worked together at Papa Johns. Yes, another boyfriend at Papa Johns. Later, I had a no date at work policy, but definitely didn't in my teens. I went to his senior prom with him. 

I quit working at Papa Johns and started working at Ryan's Steakhouse as a waitress. I made good money in tips. I did have my first kidney stone at 16 from drinking Dr. Pepper at work at Ryan's. I turned 17 working at Ryan's. 

I moved out at 17. Paul got an apartment in Five Points right on the corner of Greene and Harden streets by the fountain. I became his roommate. By this time and could afford it with my tips. My mom was not happy that I moved out, but she had Ted by that point. I lived there for months, but then decided to move back home so I could get a new car. 

I was hanging out with Paul's friends, and I met Craig that year. He was a year older and already graduated. He lit up like a Christmas Tree when I saw him. I thought it was the ecstasy that I took the night before, but now I know I was seeing his magnificent aura. 

I woke up from a lake party with a flat tire and a gorgeous light guy was there to fix it. We talked on the phone after, and he talked to me about God. You would have to know him to know how strange that was. Party guy talking about God. We made instant friends. We partied a lot at his house off Fish Hatchery Road. It was a very nice house that he as a construction worker kept making better. I had the biggest crush on him, but acting on it was too dangerous. 

Craig went through women like underwear and treated the ones he slept with not so nice. I was the friend that he took care of, and I liked my place in his life. Mike, his brother, was also around. He was eight years older than me. We called him Million Dollar Mike because he made a lot of money framing houses. 

Mike went through women like that too. I was golden as their friend. This would be where I really started valuing the friend zone for men. I call myself Queen of the Friend Zone. I learned a lot of my dating behaviors post-Wayne lessons plus Craig and Mike. After Wayne, I was steering clear of dating dangerous men, but I enjoyed being friends with them and being spoiled by them. 

I didn't date again until 17. I dated one of Craig's workers, Tim, at around prom time. He went to the prom with me while Craig went with my friend. Craig didn't even go to our school, but he was popular there. Craig beat Tim up after the prom. Craig didn't like me with him. That was the last time I saw Tim until years later at a bar. 

I couldn't party that hard and make it through college. To give you an example, my freshman year (18), I brought my entire floor of ladies to an open bar party with all of the alcohol and ecstasy we wanted. It was a fun night for sure. That's when I realized that lifestyle was fun but not good for me. I gave it up for college and got with David 2 who also went to college and did more moderate partying without ecstasy. 

At 18, I also had to give up a high paying tips job at the bar that the radio station 93.5 did live music at because of the partying the job required. Yes, I was getting drunk at a bar that I worked at for loads of money at 18 years old. It was a blast and paid $300-$400 a night. 

Craig would come see me at Sundance. I also met a really cool regular customer named Glen. I tease that Glen gets free counseling because he pretty much paid my bills through tips during that time. He's never taken me up on it though.  

I tried dating once at 18 in college. I brought the guy to Craig's house, and Craig tried to beat him up too. It was easier to just stay spoiled and single. I didn't date again until I was19 when I met David at a party while studying. I dated him from 19-24 years old. It was a fun, travel and party relationship, but I wasn't in love. 

I got married at 22 to David, way too young, and left by 24 when I got out of graduate school. I left Craig when I got with David at 19 and showed back up at 24 when I got out of graduate school. The look on Craig's face when I showed up at his door again was priceless. We considered dating, but I was still too scared of him romantically. 

That's enough about my early years for now. I realize writing this all that I sacrificed for my education. I could've had a lot more fun in college and could've stayed with Craig and Mike, but I chose not to. Craig died when I was 26, and I regretted leaving him for all of those years. 

Speaking of being Queen of the Friend Zone, I let one guy out to see how we do. I wanted to let him out of the friend zone because he did so well at accepting it and giving me time to feel comfortable with everything. I went with calling it casual dating. It was surprising to him because I was so adamant about waiting for you, but I can't know if it's you without trying. And I needed to feel normal again. 

My medicine has side effects, and I felt normal for the first time since starting them. That was my clue to proceed. Comfort and normalcy is what I need right now. I realize that you would want me to live and not sit around waiting for you. 

Well, I am going to go spend time with the kids. Being around Tara and Ricky made me miss you. How I love and miss someone that I do not have an identity for is a little crazy, but it's been this way for years. I talk to you, share events with you, it's like I have you when I don't. It will be hard for someone to feel those shoes. I realize that. 💕

Love Always, 

Your Allie, Christa
tomynoahblog@gmail.com

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Letter 12: Wild Child

To My Noah, 

I took a couple of days off. I will write when I feel like it. This is only a hobby, not a job, I do not want it to feel like a job. I want to enjoy it. When I looked it up, most start out with 3-10 posts (me 5), go hard (me everyday), and then slow down to 1-2 a week. I planned on every day, but that feels like a job. I also read it can cause writer burnout.  

I started a blog on dream journaling, but I didn't want to post it as is. I'll write about it later. Today, we will pick up where I left off in my past. I think I stopped with highlights from life at 14. I was living with 46 year old Nana at from 13-15. 

I'll go back to thirteen. At 13, I was in eight grade at Pine Ridge Middle School. I was a cheerleader with Angie as the coach. She was Aunt DeeAnn's friend. I walked home to Aunt DeeAnn's mom, Ann's, house who watched me until Nana came and got me. Ross walked with me until his house in Arborgate where I cut through to get to Ann's. 

The first memory I have at 14, I almost killed myself. I wanted to swim and I snuck into the Forestbrook Apartment pool. I walked down there alone. We lived in a house a few blocks away. 

I was the only person at the pool at the time. I was doing back flips into the pool. I made a mistake and hit my head on the side of the pool. It knocked me out. I woke up at the bottom of the pool needing air. 

I could've died that day and Nana would've never known where I was until my body was found. Fourteen year old me didn't understand what mom me now does. I have a 14 year old that thinks she's grown. I am paying for what I did. LOL!

Also at 14, I went from hating partying to exploring it myself. I became a Airport High School (AHS) cheerleader at 14 and got more popular. Braces did me a lot of good. Growing boobs over the summer did me a lot of good too. 

I met Wayne soon after I started 9th grade. He was sneaking in when my grandparents went to church. One day, I had to keep him in the closet for hours because they skipped dinner out and came home early. I shoved him in the closet. He had to wait until they went to bed to leave. 

Wayne also got drunk one day and beat on my window while it was raining. I was mad at him for partying instead of coming to see me. I had to compete with his partying because I didn't like it from my parents. He came to see me after he got drunk, and I wouldn't let him in. He beat on my window yelling while drunk standing in the pouring down rain. 

My Nana came in wondering what all of the noise was. She saw Wayne yelling in the rain at the window stripping off his clothes by this point. She still laughs about that. That's when I decided that I would go out with him instead of stay home and be mad that he partied. What a mistake that was. If you can't beat them, join them mentality that I wish I never got.

I went to my first party at Forestbrook Apartments. I met his party friends. Will was there. He was good looking, but I hadn't gotten fed up with Wayne yet. 

My Nana found out where I was and sent my dad. My 29 year old dad showed up with his roofer buddies, ripped off his shirt, and came into the apartment looking for me. I obviously had to leave and was super embarrassed. My dad could party, but he didn't want me doing it at 14. 

I also stayed at Wayne's house to visit him in juvenile jail at 14. I cannot believe Nana let me do this. She really did try to work with me, and I thought she was mean. I would not let Lexi date a juvenile delinquent and see him in jail. Nana was already broken in by my mom and dad having me at 13 and 15 years old. She was nicer than I am. 

Fifteen was eventful for me too. I got tired of Wayne and decided to date Will who was 19. I got in trouble at 15 for going to Charleston with Will. I was already on restriction, and they let me go to the football game on Friday. 

Papa told me that if I don't come back on time, not to come back at all. My dumb self didn't come back on Friday on time, but went to Charleston and came back on Sunday. They had no idea where I was. I got kicked out. At the time, I thought Nana and Papa was being mean for kicking me out. Now, I can't believe they didn't get him arrested.

As a mom of two teenagers, I am horrified by the fact that I had a boyfriend this old and did this. They should've got him arrested for being with a minor and taking her out of town. Teen me is glad they didn't, but mom me would've. I thought I was so grown. Lexi does too, so I understand what it is like to deal with this as a mother. 

When I got kicked out at 15, I had to move back in with my mother. She had to move back from Myrtle Beach to get all three of us back. I got my first job at 15 at Papa Johns in Three Fountains. I helped her pay bills. 

I lied to say I was 16 because it was required for the job. They found out a couple of months before I turned 16, but I was employee of the month that month, so they let me stay. That would not happen now. I would've never gotten away with lying in the first place.

Back to 15, I broke up with Will for being a cheater and hitting me. I met Daniel at work. He was a delivery driver while I made pizzas and answered the phone. We went skiing in North Carolina with his mother. 

He beat up Wayne and Will in my front yard. Yes, they got together to attack the new guy, and he beat them both up at the same time. Mom, Aaron, Cameron and I watched the fight from the porch until Mom and I stopped the fight. 

They had a second round at the graveyard nearby. He beat them up there too. We moved behind KFC in Three Fountains. I caught Daniel doing hard drugs in that apartment, so I broke up with him. 

I met another delivery driver, Scott. He went to Swansea High School and was super cute. He was a year or two older than me, but still in high school. I dated him for a little while, but I broke up with him because he wanted to put my name on the side of his truck. 

Scott was too clingy and obsessed for me. I dated this guy again as an adult mom because I liked how much he liked me then. He wanted me to support him, so I dumped him. I will tell you more about that later. 

After Scott, I dated Jason. He went to AHS with and was a senior (17) when I was a sophomore (15). He recently told me that he was warned that I was still into Wayne. He said he refused to listen, and Wayne actually wasn't our problem.

Note, Wayne was always lurking behind the scenes when I dated someone else. He was my weakness, but I wanted to move on with my life because he was so bad. He didn't want to act right, but also didn't want me with someone else. 

I gave up on Wayne romantically at 19 when I got with his brother. I grew out of him as a friend and brother-in-law by 26. Part of the reason I left David was because I couldn't deal with Wayne anymore. Having him as a brother-in-law was like having a child to take care of. I even bailed him out of jail with their mom. 

Wayne tried to reconnect when I moved back home from Texas in 2013, but I wasn't having him near my children. Mama bear had kicked in. I was taking care of them, not him anymore. He actually said I came back to take care of him. I saw him at Lowes, and I took off in the opposite direction. I heard that he got some sort of amputation. I'm glad I dodged that bullet. 

Back to Jason, he was super nice. I liked him a lot. We met before school, and he drove me to school. He just told me that we were late a lot to school. That is not a surprise. 

Jason recently reminded me that I cheated on him and told him we had to break up. I still don't remember this. Jason had to recently tell me, but I know what happened. I got blackout drunk at some party without him and ended up with some other guy. Neither of us can even remember this guy's name.

I felt terrible because I don't cheat, so I broke up with Jason. That logic sounds crazy now, but that was my 15 year old logic. It was so out of character for me. I dealt with cheating Wayne hurting me, so doing it to someone else was terrible. 

I didn't want to lie or feel guilty, so I told Jason and ended things with him. He told me that he was upset. He still tried to show up where I was out even after this trying to get me back. I didn't want to face what happened, so it didn't work. 

Now that I know what can happen when you blackout, I know it wasn't me. However, I didn't know that until over 25 years later. For those who missed that post, I learned from Costa Rica where it's common knowledge that negative spirits can hijack your body when you are blackout drunk. This was probably my first blackout drunk or early on. Late teens to mid-20s, negative spirits had a field day with my body during blackouts. 

After Jason, I started hanging out with Paul. We never dated, but were roommates later. He was so much fun. He got me my first fake ID and took me to my first bar at 15, Mad Hatters. It was so cool that I was able to get in with another lady's license. I got fruity drinks and all. I remember dancing and having a ball. 

Well, I think that is all of the 14 and 15 stories that I want to tell. God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you and it really started here. I still have a lot of the day left. I will go ahead and post instead of waiting until tomorrow. I haven't posted in days. 💓

Love Always, 

Your Allie, Christa
tomynoahblog@gmail.com

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Letter 11: Types of Spirits

To My Noah,

I got a little nervous to post my last blog because someone was thinking the wrong things. It's better for them to be afraid that I am violating the Bible than not believe at all. It's actually the complete opposite, we work with the Bible. Today, we will talk about the types of spirits we have dealt with and crossed over.  

I got a crash course in transitioning souls bc I just wanted rid of the spirits and get them to stop possessing and harassing my children. They wanted to transition, so it was a way of getting rid of them. And it worked to get rid of them.

Some souls are afraid to cross over because they don't think they are going to heaven because they were bad in life. They are super harassing. Others, I am not sure can transition because they are what the Bible calls demons. 

I am not sure what Chad, the spirit that possessed Logan, really was because we didn't see him. He said he went through different dimensions to get to us. From what I've read and learned from others, ETs are from other dimensions. If so, he came early for ETs. He wanted to transition, so if he was an ET, they can cross over. He would be the only ET that I worked directly with to transition.

We can see shadows that look like ovals like you see on tv, shadows in a shape (like the hat man), spirits that look like people, spirits that look like demons and goblins, two spirits that look like devils, and spirits that look like ETs. The bad ETs present looking like Dracos and Greys. I put a pic to give an idea of what these two look like on the top, Draco (left) and Grey (right). 

We had one good ET looking spirit that stayed with Lexi saying she was protecting her. Her name was Sally. I didn't want any help from the ETs, but she did no harm. I am not sure how they present in form. I don't know how they present at all, but they do. 

I see them in my mind's eye, but the kids were young and could see them with their regular eyes. Young children and animals can pick up spirits when adults can't. At first, I couldn't see them with my mind's eye at all, I could only hear. However, I learned out of terror how to see them with my mind's eye to help the kids. 

Back to the order that we got them in. First, we had just shadow forms. They just showed up, not attacked. They scared the kids and sent us to the counselor for him to tell me that the kids are seeing spirits. We were told later by paranormal team two that many of the shadows they first saw were slaves of the hat man that were trapped with him. He was their farmer owner. They did not attack other than being seen. 

Second, we had the hat man that was a shadow that presented as a man with a hat on. He lasted for almost a year. He never crossed over, he just stopped bothering us. Unless he transitioned at another time that I do not know about. He wouldn't transition because he was so bad and thought he was going to hell.

Sometimes, I didn't have specific spirits that I transitioned. When we lived at the lake, there were many souls that were buried in the lake with graveyards under the lake. We were still having spirit attacks at the lake pretty bad. I made a deal that I would open a portal over our part of the lake every Wednesday if they stopped attacking the kids. I did this for a few weeks. 

They didn't stop attacking the kids, so I stopped my Wednesday portals to transition them. I was trying to teach boundaries like other psychic mediums told me to do. It didn't work though. Neither did calling on God, Jesus, Archangel Michael or a Priest/demonologist. The priest, Archangel Michael, and Jesus would fight with us, but it didn't magically stop them coming like calling Jesus' or God's name is told to do. They did not stop attacking us this way for four years, until I left Jonathan and cut off all contact. 

Many of the spirits that possessed the kids to transition said they were humans that were bad people and victims of bad people. We had Adam that came after the hat man who was the first to possess Lexi. We could not get rid of Adam for about six months. Him and possession is the reason I called the priest/demonologist in Tennessee. I'm not Catholic, but he was also a demonologist/exorcist and paranormal team two suggested him. 

Adam came when we left my mother's birthday party at the church. I was driving down the road. Logan told me that a spirit named Adam was in the backseat with them. Adam told Logan that he was an ancestor. I still have no idea what ancestor he was because I did our genealogy and didn't find an Adam. They lie a lot. 

Adam started like the hat man, scratching the kids. The night I finally decided to move in with Jonathan, Adam slung Lexi around in her room. I could not see him, but she went flying all around the room with what looked like nothing throwing her around. This was early on, and I freaked out. 

I called Jonathan and said we were moving in with him. I packed us up and left our house on the Charwood Golf Course. The hat man lives on that golf course, by the way. We were told by paranormal team two that it used to be his farmland before it was a golf course.  

It got worse and escalated to possession when we moved to Jonathan's. The first time Lexi got possessed she was riding her bike at Jonathans. She came over on the bike with a different face and viscous sounding voice. 

It was clear that it wasn't her anymore. I panicked so bad. It was horrible when this happened to the kids. Sometimes they pass out and go into convulsions. They have negative experiences like getting beaten while they are gone. They come back with these terrible stories and pain from what happened to them while they were gone. The priest saw all of this in the videos. 

I only allowed him to view the videos. I was the only one that had them and then I destroyed them. I thought they were attracting spirits. I would never let the public see my kids, mainly my daughter like that.

The possessions by Adam lasted months. We could not get him to transition. We finally did get him to transition. He thought I was Mary Queen of Scots reincarnated and wanted to be with me. He really believed I was Mary. There is a lot more to the Mary story that I may tell later. 

I looked up Adam with Mary Queen of Scots and found Adam Bothwell, a bishop that married her to her third husband and crowned her son. He also wrote about her. I was able to tell him that Mary was waiting on the other side for him if he went. 

I heard a voice say she was Mary to get him to go into the portal. That's the only time I heard a voice with the portal. I think the voice is what really got him to go into the portal. The voice saying she was Mary, the priest, and me got him to transition. 

After Adam, we got a vicious family who said they were Lexi's family from a past life. It was a mom, dad, and two siblings. The dad was especially bad when he possessed Lexi. He used her body to try and stab me with a knife. The hungry ghosts who came later did too. Even with all of this going on, I made videos for the priest/demonologist. The Catholic Church knows that I am telling the truth. 

We also had two murder/suicide couples at around this time at Jonathan's. The first one that attacked Lexi was a little girl who got killed by her stepfather. The stepfather kept possessing Lexi. The murder victim/step-daughter only possessed Lexi one time. 

The stepdaughter came into Lexi and asked me to cross her over while the step father wasn't around. She said she got trapped here because of the murdering step-father. I transitioned her and then had to deal with the step-father possessing Lexi again. He was really mad that I transitioned his victim/step-daughter over while he was away. 

The step-daughter told me that spirits have a hard time transitioning when they have traumatic deaths. The step-father was scared of going to hell because he murdered and then committed suicide. I tried to get him to transition to go away and stop attacking Lexi, but he was afraid. I did finally talk him into it to get rid of him. My counseling skills came in handy with spirits too. 

I didn't get the story for the second murder/suicide couple. They saw the first one cross over and said they were like them in a murder/suicide. That one was easy to get to transition with only one possession to tell me they wanted to transition. This murder/suicide wasn't scared after the first one transitioned. 

After these past life and murder/suicide spirits, we got the hungry ghosts. They lasted for over six months. I didn't think we'd ever get rid of Harold. We called in Jesus and Archangel Michael the warrior/protector all of the time dealing with these spirits, but we saw them for the first time during the hungry ghosts. 

Yes, I have seen Jesus and Archangel Michael many times now. They fought them with us.  Jesus taught Lexi how to fight with white light and even make weapons out of white light. She taught us how to do it. 

Archangel Michael's famous sword is a white or blue light sword just so you know. You can use any color to make it more fun as long as it is Divine energy. We were taught white light, the most common first. You can fight them in your mind's eye to see it and it applies to the real world.

An important story I don't think I told you in my hungry ghost post is when Lexi got attacked at  Peachtree Rock. She got possessed after she climbed up the cliff by the waterfall and the hungry ghost in her threatened to jump off the cliff. I was down below watching them, but Logan was up on the cliff with Lexi. Logan knew what was happening and grabbed Lexi for me. We walked her back to the car to get it out of her. 

I had the "I love you mom" letters that she drew/wrote me to read to her to get her back. I panicked and came up with this technique to get her back. This was a particularly bad attack because it would not let her go. The priest/demonologist was impressed with the letter technique to get her back because it was new to him. 

After the hungry ghosts, we got demons and goblins. Goblins came through portals on the bathroom toilets. Demons came through portals in the house. We kept having to close their portals all over the house. They would open one to get into the house, and we would close it to shut them down. This went on for months. 

Then came what looked like the devil and what said and looked like the devil's son. The devil's son was worse than the devil. After that, we got what looked like and said they were ETs. We had demons and ETs for the last two years. Following that was the 4 year fake light being attack that I will talk about later. 

I don't know if ETs can cross over because I didn't transition them like I did the human souls, unless Chad was an ET. However, they could've went in the mass transitionings that I did like at the lake where I opened a portal and let whoever come through. I saw it, but the mass ones look like a bunch of shadows going through the portal, so I can't tell who they all are.

Well I am ready for bed. Writing about the attacks together took a lot out of me. I will edit in the morning and send it out. I found that lunch time during the week is best. However, I write everyday, so I will do around lunch tomorrow or later. I may take the sabbath/Sunday off. Good night my love! 💞

Love Always, 

Your Allie, Christa
tomynoahblog@gmail.com

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Letter 10: Witches Are Real

To My Noah,

I delayed today because I don't know what to talk about. I need to just free-write and let it come out. I did just get some feedback that if you don't read everything you can get lost and some older people are worried that I am getting involved with black magic. I do candle ceremonies, energy clearing, and manifestation that can be considered white magic. White/Good witches exist, but those are not the ones I encountered or will talk about today. However, I am in no way practicing black magic or devil worshiping of any form. Please readers, read all of the letters because I talk about God and not choosing this. I put a link for all letters in the posts.

We are survivors of having black magic and negative spirit attacks used on us. I talk about trying to give the psychic medium gifts back to God. It didn't work for years, but the kids finally got a break from theirs when they got older. I didn't get a break. 

We had black magic used on us many times by five evil witches that I know of. Evil witches, negative spirits, and black magic are real! There are also The Bible tells you so. The evil witches use spirits to hurt and manipulate people. 

This stuff happened to us at first through my innocent children who got attacked. And I just learned to stop it. It happened when I learned about generational curses in the Bible and decided to make sure I broke them. It's like we got attacked for me wanting to break the generational curses. I am a counselor. I was looking at it from a counseling perspective, not spiritual. However, we got evil witches, negative spirits, and spiritual gifts to fight back. 

I know that I talked about this before, but it was missed so Nana asked me to clarify again. Feedback from our generation has been wonderful. I've had others share their paranormal and spiritual journey stories. Just because things aren't talked about doesn't mean they aren't happening. This is a taboo subject that locals and the older generation fear and don't believe. I have found people all over the world to learn from that know about this stuff. 

My priest/demonologist was in TN. My spiritual support group had people from Canada, Austria, Australia, California, Florida and other states. I also visited a 5D spiritual retreat in NC trying to get help. I have met some wonderful and not so wonderful people on this journey. Wolves in sheep's clothing in the spiritual community exist.

I have found better community online with people elsewhere than I have locally because most locals are normies. I had to keep secrets with the locals and get help from people who knew about these things to help me. I did find two local paranormal groups locally to help me. They both had psychic mediums on their teams. I was told by paranormal team two that South Carolina has the most paranormal teams per capita. Texas and California have the highest amount overall. 

I didn't want to be a psychic medium. I didn't believe and thought they were all cons. When this first started, I went to a psychic medium for help with the generational curses hoping to stop the attacks. I got later in my journal that she was using black magic, so I left without getting the services that I paid $700 for. I not only do not practice black magic, I don't deal with people who do. 

I dated a guy that was into black magic, but I didn't know. I found out that he was using black magic on me, and I broke up with him. He was doing love sigils on me. He carried his love sigils around in his back pocket when he was with me. I saw them, but didn't know what they were. It was love magic to make me want to be with him. I have had love magic used on me by five warlocks (male witches, but I use witch for all to make it easier) that I know of. 

A sigil is a symbol that you draw or use general ones that is used for magic to get what you want. You can look them up online. You burn them to send off the intent to the spirits or Universe depending on the spell. The downside for the evil witch is that using love magic makes you crazy. He got crazy jealous about other guys because he was doing this.

Evil witches can sense if you are gifted even before you know (like in our case) and they try to engage with you to use your power for their magic. Secret sex magic is a popular way they do this. Sex magic can easily be done in secret by them doing their spell before or after and them using intent during the orgasm. You never know what's happening. Candle magic is easy to use with it because candles are also romantic, not just used in candle magic. It doesn't set of any alarms and makes the victim happy because of the romance. 

I had love magic used on me with three guys from Airport High School (AHS). The first AHS guy told me when I found out that I am gifted that he knew and dated me because of it. He said he only dated gifted people and practicing witches. Most have no idea that this guy and his ex-wife are running around doing spells and sending evil spirits to attack people, but I know. 

The second AHS guy didn't admit, but I knew based on what happened with us. The third AHS guy told me he did magic when he offered to help me with his counter magic to the bad, However, I found out he was using black magic too. I steer clear of all of them.

Another guy that I told about my gifts told me that he was an evil witch and he threatened me that if I didn't marry him, he would attack me. I had never knew this about these guys before this happened. These people hide in plain sight and use the fact that normies don't believe and know what they are doing. 

People don't think evil witches exist anymore, but that is what they want you to think. I know where an evil witch coven exists right down the road in West Columbia, and no one knows they are a practicing coven. Go on meetup.com and you can join a coven here in town. They tried to get me to join many times, but I don’t do black magic or work with negative spirits! These people and their evil spirits they work with are real. 

Have you ever done something that was so out of character that you don't know what you were thinking and you weren't drunk? Then, you just snapped out of it and realized how crazy it was. That's an example of what it feels like to be under a spell of manipulation and coming out of it. I know it well. 

Love spells are like this and very popular among evil witches. They use spirit influence to cause problems between couples to split them up too. If you think I am crazy, google how you can hire someone to help you with a love spell. 

I just googled it and found that "professional magicians serving the Pine Ridge and greater Columbia region typically charge around $300 to $500 for one-hour performance." They make much better money than your typical 9-5 job, and they are practicing right here. There are thousands of profitable businesses made from paid love spells. Instagram (IG) is where the spiritual community likes to hang out. 

There are people that have demonic attachments and possessions too. Some are generational from the family line and others are sent from evil witches. People don't know what's going on with themselves or with others. However, attachments and possessions are real. Your ignorance and cognitive dissonance not wanting to believe make you vulnerable. 

The other local person many know that I discussed before that also has visions and communicates with spirits said they call themselves a seer. They know about these demonic attachments and possessions. Addiction is a sign of unknowingly being influenced. And being addicted and drinking attracts negative spirits and witches. 

A sudden, major negative behavior change is another sign. The seer told me that they sit back and watch people knowing what's going on without saying anything. They said that they don't help people because they have been called crazy before. Well, I am to the point where keeping secrets is harder than caring what others think. 

On paranormal team one, the lead protector could tell if people were possessed or had attachments by looking at their eyes. He had me send pictures of people that I suspected. It was interesting to see how many are this way and don't know it. I could tell when the kids were possessed because their voice and behavior changed drastically. The spirits didn't hide the possession from me the way they do others. They fed on our terror. 

When I was studying possession trying to stop it, I found an article from Costa Rica. Apparently, it is common knowledge there that possession can happen when you drink alcohol. Many times blackouts are possessions. They said that the body gets to drunk for your soul to stay in so it tethers to your body. While it is too toxic for your soul, spirits can hijack your body. You wake up and hear what you supposedly did and freak out, but it wasn't you. I've had this happen to me many times.

Have you ever had a blackout where you did something you'd NEVER do sober? You likely had a spirit possession. They love me and want to take this powerful body for a ride. I quit drinking more than a couple of drinks because of this. They hang out at bars and around heavy drinkers waiting to hijack bodies. 

You can look up all of these things the way that I did. I know you will believe me, but the readers may not. People need to wake up to what's going on around them and to them. The internet can teach you a lot! So can talking to people who know about these things. I am open to talk to the readers. I have been talking to some. 

Well I am heading to bed to relax before I fall asleep. I watch tv until I get sleepy. I love HGTV house hunting and remodeling. That's the only construction I got from my construction family. Good night my love! 

Love Always, 

Your Allie, Christa
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Letter 8: It's Your Love

To My Noah,

I have been getting great feedback on the blog. It has opened up many conversations with people. One person I know divulged that they have visions and communicate with spirits too. They don't want me to tell who they are. Others have had experiences that they don't talk about, but have with me. Gifted people are so alone in this because the normies I call them will judge and won't accept it. This person told me that people have thought they were crazy. 

Nana and my Aunt Betty are worried about me attracting spirits with the blog. It's not like they ever went away. They just stopped possessing the kids. I waited until the kids were older and strong enough and free from attacks for four years before I wrote about it. They come before a blog. I've only had one incident and that was unplugging my computer. No big deal to me after all we have been through.  

Nana said The Bible says mediums are evil. She is just worried that they will hurt us again. She is worried that practicing mediumship will be against God. There is nothing evil about me, and I did not choose these gifts. I am not selling sessions or crossing anyone over even though I can. I am a certified evidential psychic medium, demonologist, tarot and angel card reader, and past life regressionist. I learned a lot trying to make this stop. 

I did everything I could to make the gifts go away. I even prayed with the kids multiple times to God to please take them away so we can be left alone. If God didn't want us to have these gifts, he should've not let us get them or taken them when we asked. 

That didn't happen because God gave these gifts to us. He must have really trusted me to be a portal between worlds and giving me two gifted children. I may use my certifications later. Telling our story is enough ruffling of feathers in the spirit world at one time. 

The evil spirits tried so hard to stop me from telling our story. And 68 people have heard it now. That's not a whole lot, but it feels good to have it out. It was so hard going through all of that alone and trying to keep it a secret. 

I will tell about the first personal attack on me. It was soon after I learned that I am a psychic medium. Justin was told a little about it during it, but he has no idea how bad he was used to hurt me. I've recently seen him, but I didn't say anything about it. 

It started with hearing his name that turned into, "Justin is your twin flame." I started getting visions then too. It started with a dream where we were in a dark room dancing to "It's Your Love." It progressed to my first visions of us dancing in that same room to that same song. It got really bad where I would see and hear it all day for five months. 

I also got a vision of him having sex with someone else. That went on for months too. He was my friends with benefits (FWB) previously. However, he deployed, and I didn't want a FWB anymore when he came back. It was a fat girl he finally started dating. He didn't date while we were FWB for three years. This was the first one he dated and those visions grossed me out! 

It was Justin voices, visions, and dreams 24/7 for five months straight. Bryan and the mean girls have been used negatively in dreams too. I kicked Bryan off my Facebook over it without telling him why. I just wanted the dreams to stop. I do not suspect him of being evil either, just used because of our past. The same goes for the mean girls.

Being told that I would see Justin at the store buying cigarettes and then seeing him at the store buying cigarettes happened during this five months too. They really wanted me to believe that he was my twin flame and with another, fat woman. It was awful! I just wanted relief from it. I even contacted a twin flame expert who said he wasn't my twin flame, but a false twin flame instead. He's a great guy, but not my twin flame. 

Justin and so many others were used in a longer, four year attack by false light beings too. I thought they were helping, but they were playing good cop, bad cop pretending to battle each other when they all were bad. Again, I will say, there are good spirits that have helped, but these weren't it. It is so hard to tell the difference.

We have gotten family members that have passed away to help us, my Papa and Lee. They came in with the hat man attacks. Craig who died was used because I cared about him so much. They pretended to be him after a vision that he is my medium guide. I did a meditation to meet my medium guide and got Craig. 

I still don't know if I really had contact with Craig because of evil spirit interference. However, this fake Craig told me that Craig was my twin flame and since he died, he wanted me to be happy with Jonathan. This was when I realized that I didn't love Jonathan and wanted to leave him. Here came fake Craig to tell me to stay. Craig was the only one used negatively then. 

I had good dreams with Justin, Jeremy, and Trevor at this same time. Those dreams showed me that I wasn't in love with Jonathan.  These guys unknowingly saved me from the craze with Jonathan. I wasn't in love with them either, but we just hung out in the dreams and had much more chemistry. I told Jonathan all of this too. 

I steer clear of all finding My Noah help. I will figure My Noah out on my own! They use the ones I care about against me. I can't take anymore after the four year attack. I don't want the evil spirits to win by me not crossing people over, but I have to take care of myself and heal. Telling my story is helping me heal. 

What am I looking for? I want to want and love someone the way these guys have wanted and lusted after me. I have a problem with them wanting me and me not being able to want or love them back. It doesn't seem like too much to ask for the feelings to be mutual, but I have been knowingly looking for that for a long time. 

Someone asked me how I will find My Noah without dating. That was a good question. I will date after a time in the friend zone, get to know place. If I already know them, it's a let's see if more is a possibility place. Either way, I am testing the waters from the friend zone, then moving onto dating, and then a relationship.

I am trying different posting times out. Doing it when I finished at 10:30 pm did not do as well as when I posted at noon. I am going to try posting after my evening walk to see how that works. My Noah, it's actually your love that has a spell on me to where I can't settle. Good night my love! 💟

Love Always, 

Your Allie, Christa
tomynoahblog@gmail.com

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Letter 7: Soul Transitions

To My Noah,

I got a late start today because I went to lunch and to West Columbia River Walk. It was nice. I am obsessed with being near water. I lived on the lake with husband three, but I had to leave it when I left him because I couldn't afford it alone. 

Today, I want to talk about the difference between a psychic and a medium. I will also tell you my different experiences. A psychic reads energy, is an intuitive, and can tell future events. A medium communicates with spirits and other beings. 

My psychic comes from dreams, intuition, and spirits. My medium like all mediums comes from spirits themselves. Not all spirits are bad, but it's what we have encountered the most. The difference between my medium and other mediums is that I can transition souls to the other side. Not all mediums can do that. 

That consists of opening a portal for them to go though. It's quite easy for me and only takes a few minutes, but it attracts a lot of spirits. It attracts souls that want to transition and spirits that don't want me transitioning them over that I call evil spirits.

Evil spirits are vicious! Some souls that want to transition violate boundaries too by getting into the kids to get me to transition them. I can't even tell you how many times my children have been possessed by both types of spirits. 

An example of a spirit giving me an accurate future prediction is when I was driving down the road with the kids. I was driving down I-77 and told the kids that we need to stop by the store on the way home. I heard, "Justin will be at the store buying cigarettes." 

I was used to ignoring them by that time. I pulled into the store and thought nothing else about it until I walked into the store and saw Justin standing there. I panicked and ran down the isle. I called my best friend Jessica to tell her what happened. 

While I was on the phone with Jessica, I heard the clerk telling Justin that he forgot to take his cigarettes. We both get flustered when we see each other. LOL! They were right, Justin was at the store buying cigarettes, and he wasn't there yet when I was going down I-77 and heard it. I still don't know how they knew that he was going to be there buying cigarettes when I came in, but he was. 

The Justin attack (they used him, not him doing it) is a story in itself that lasted 5 months that I will tell you about later. There are so many attack stories. There are so many beings that people don't know exist. This world is not what regular people think. These things are out there all over the internet, but regular people don't get exposed to it. I didn't get exposed to it until this happened to us. 

I will tell the story about how I learned to transition souls to cover the medium part of this. I was working at my office at the University of South Carolina. I was upset about Lexi's recent attack and panicking that I couldn't tell my co-workers what I was going through. I looked at my computer and saw a pop-up. 

The pop-up was a description of a lady transitioning souls. I opened it up and read it. I wondered, can I do this to get rid of them so they quit attacking us? I learned what she did and called Josh and Jonathan to try it. 

Josh came, and we smudged the house. I went outside. I closed my eyes. I opened a portal, and watched them go through. It was super easy and effective. The problem is that it attracted more spirits. It's like a spirit memo went out that this portal between worlds learned how to transition. 

My learning was supposed to make it better, but it made it worse. I put a picture of the closest I could find to show what a portal I create looks like. I start creating a small white light with my mind's eye, and I gradually make it bigger until it gets big enough to let spirits through. Angels come to escort the souls to the other side. When I am done, I make it smaller and make it disappear. Super easy, but super attractive to spirits. 

The spirit Chad that told me Harold would go away and Logan would be a billionaire also told me that he had to go through multiple dimensions to get to us because he heard about us and found us to help him. Chad possessed Logan, not Lexi, which was rare.

My Aunt Sharon and Aunt Sonya (really 3rd cousin, but she's like my aunt, so that's what we call her) cleared up the Ouija board story today. I wasn't there, I just heard about it. They said a nail polish/tissue fire was started to cause the damage, no mystery there. I am glad someone finally cleared that one up for me. 

My Grandma Shala is accused of being a witch that used a voodoo doll on my mother to make her sickly. I asked her with all of this going on. She said no that she goes to church regularly and isn't a witch. Family stories can get crazy!

Back to transitioning souls, I have no idea where they go. I wonder that so much. What did Chad mean about traveling through dimensions to get to us? Why could he travel through dimensions to get to us, but not transition without us? Why do some get trapped, unable to transition? I have asked these questions of spirits and other psychic mediums. 

The only thing I have gotten that seems somewhat credible is that some have traumatic experiences and unfinished business that make them unable to transition. The answer really is, no one here knows, and I am not sure if the spirits truly understand either. If so, they haven't explained it to me. 

I do know much more than the average person about what actually exists in this world. One I hope is true is twin flames. I want to believe that there is another part of my soul in another body for that perfect match. I have studied it intensely and been through a lot with it. During the Justin attack, spirits made me think he was my twin flame, but he isn't. 

Later, during the fake light being attacks, they made me think an entire lie story about my twin flame. It brings me joy to think there is someone out there like that for me, but I have so much trauma around it. The Notebook is on the list of twin flame movies and that love is what I am going for.  

I had a numerology twin flame reading that told me that I will meet my twin flame, but not see his value and realize it later in life. That reading was so accurate in other areas that I wonder if I missed someone along the way. It's only one reading out of many things I have looked into. My astrology report says that I will find love later in life. That one is obviously true because I'm almost 44 and still haven't found it. 

Well I am relaxing for the night. I had a good day and it was really easy to write. Yesterday was harder. I will talk to you tomorrow. Good night my love! 💋

Love Always, 

Your Allie, Christa
tomynoahblog@gmail.com

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